Unpredictable.

It was the right time to do it. I HAD to do it because the memory of you is still in my mind. I know if your reading this, you might not understand but this is the only way I can get better and not believe in false hope anymore. I don't want to dream about it anymore, i don't want to anticipate anymore, I don't want to get hurt anymore, I don't want the feelings to come back anymore. The fact that you said you will always be there for me, I really doubt it most of the times. I know that you will question yourself and question me, but the only way i can see myself move forward is not take part in your life anymore. Your in university now and it takes so much from me to put trust into you. We don't talk anymore, so whats the point of taking part of my life? Its useless. I really hope you get to read this because this way you will step into my shoes to know that im doing this for the both of us, not just me. I'm sure you'll cope with people around you, I'm sure you'll be alright, I'm sure that one day you will know your limitations because I can't be there for you anymore. It's not that i choose not to, but you chose not to begin with. I can't pick you up when you fall nor can I open my heart to you again when you don't open your heart for me. I'm sure you'll do fine without me by your side.. you know, sometimes many things reminds me of you but then I take a good look at who you've become, who I've become, who you're surrounded with, and who I'm surrounded with.. and i start to realize to see the reason why we can't ever be together.

i'm sorry i can't provide you with what you want.
we both don't understand, and our timing isn't right.
i'm too complicated for you to see my point of view,
but you're too stubborn to consider it anyways.
i need you to understand me,
just as much as you want me to understand you.
but i don't understand why you can't accept what i want ,
and you don't understand why i can't accept what you want .
I guess, in some cases , the reason why girls never know what they want.is only because behind every untrusting girl is a reckless lying boy who made her that way.

It's not a matter of asking questions, it's a matter of finding answers.
It's not a matter of learning, it's a matter of understanding.
It's not a matter of time, it's a matter of moment.
It's not a matter of want, it's a matter of need.
It's not a matter of risk, it's a matter of fear.

I wish you the best of luck.