Unpredictable.

Just another ordinary that passes me by, nothing extraordinary. Man, it has been so long.. I can feel it. Been sick for like a week now and yet im still pushing myself to go to school. I'm over my self really, I'm definitely pushing myself too hard but what can i say? hard work pays off later on. It's getting crazier and crazier each day, and lately i've been thinking so deeply that it gets me so mesmerized. It's not the fact that i miss everything, i don't know... i'm not sure. I talked of you guys today and my eyes began to water, and i guess the only reason why i reacted in this way is because i still care so much when i shouldn't be because you guys don't give a fuck about me so whats the point. I wish i never met you guys, i wish that you guys never came into my friken life, i wish that we never became friends, i wish that i should never care about you both in the first place, honestly... what the heck is wrong with me? i don't know anymore. I'm happy that you guys aren't here anymore because i could ACTUALLY concentrate but now, you guys linger onto me still like a memory that never fades away. I'm frustrated.. all i need is reassurance. But the fact that you say that you will always be there for me? that is what im not too sure off, because if you were, you would give me that reassurance that everything will be alright.